To the one who made me a mama.
You’ve saved me in more than one way.
You changed my life for the better.
My life is not as simple as it was before nor is it as easy. But, you have given me fresh perspective.
I do not look the same as I did before. My eyes appear a bit more tired. My clothes are not brand new. My hair is never perfectly fixed and there are gray strands taking root where brown ones laid before. I don’t remember what it’s like to have a care free night out with friends or have 2 hours of alone time. But I do know that I wouldn’t trade the life we share now for anything.
I find myself getting impatient because you refuse to nap or catch myself feeling like a failure for not being able to keep a clean house or get somewhere on time. But, I am gently reminded of what is important when I look in your sweet, innocent eyes. I am reminded to take a breath, to smile and, To be present.
You’ve reminded me of what is important in life. You’ve taught me to slow down. You’ve given me a better outlook. You’ve shown me how to love, how to be selfless, and how to care.
For you will only be this little once. The nights of which you will only want me to rock you to sleep are numbered. Your hand tightly intertwined into mine will only take place for a short while longer. So we stay in this place, in this chair, rocking in pure peace. The chaos from my dirty house and long to do list can wait. The worries, fears, and anxieties of the world melt away when you are in my arms.
Today I am supposed to be celebrated but it is you sweet child who I celebrate today. The love I have for you is indescribable. It is because of you that I am a mother and it is because of you I have been changed for the better.